Bearfanmike20's Bear Cave

[Jimmors]

hmmm...well seeing how its early in the morning and i apparantly have some wisdom left in the tank, might as well add some pyscho-babble to the conversation:

Apologies are used as a form of atonement to others we have slighted by our actions or inactions, and are typically brought on by a sense of guilt. In this case, maybe you had seen the fact that you wish to keep certain discussions vague as some kind of slight to me or that i would take it as a disappointment, to which you felt obliged to apologize for.

But then on the other hand, you claim you apologize all the time, so either you go around causing situations with many people in which they might feel slighted by your actions (which doesnt seem the case), or there is some other underlying factors to explain your incessant need to often apologize to others. One possible explanation is perhaps you take certain things that happen and blow them out of proportion to the point where you do feel guilt and the need to make amends for it. Using our past transgession as an example, perhaps you felt as if i was in fact disappointed in your need to keep things vague, but in reality that was not the case at all, as i can care less one way or the other. Another explanation is that maybe the act of apologizing has been so ingrained into your daily routines that you dont even notice when you do it, and it has become a form of conversation with others, much as cordial greetings such as "hello" or "goodbye" have become. But then again, I could be talking out of my ass and have no clue what Im saying. Who knows...

[Bearfanmike20]

Originally Posted by Jimmors

hmmm...well seeing how its early in the morning and i apparantly have some wisdom left in the tank, might as well add some pyscho-babble to the conversation:

Apologies are used as a form of atonement to others we have slighted by our actions or inactions, and are typically brought on by a sense of guilt. In this case, maybe you had seen the fact that you wish to keep certain discussions vague as some kind of slight to me or that i would take it as a disappointment, to which you felt obliged to apologize for.

But then on the other hand, you claim you apologize all the time, so either you go around causing situations with many people in which they might feel slighted by your actions (which doesnt seem the case), or there is some other underlying factors to explain your incessant need to often apologize to others. One possible explanation is perhaps you take certain things that happen and blow them out of proportion to the point where you do feel guilt and the need to make amends for it. Using our past transgession as an example, perhaps you felt as if i was in fact disappointed in your need to keep things vague, but in reality that was not the case at all, as i can care less one way or the other. Another explanation is that maybe the act of apologizing has been so ingrained into your daily routines that you dont even notice when you do it, and it has become a form of conversation with others, much as cordial greetings such as "hello" or "goodbye" have become. But then again, I could be talking out of my ass and have no clue what Im saying. Who knows...

My own theory...

I'm used to taking the blame and apologizing cause it was easier then dealing with the real issue and now that is ingraned in me and I cant seem to quit and it drives people nuts when I do it..

and for that... I'm sorry.

[Bearfanmike20]

Originally Posted by Bearfanmike20

I woke up this morning angry alone,
No emails or messages or calls on the phone,
This feeling of empty I don’t understand,
Why my only companion is my own hand,
All I need is nice warm hug,
But the truth is nobodys giving a f#ck,
Is it muphys law or just dumb blind luck,
I don’t know why but I do know it sucks,
The empty inside only filled by my rage,
I feel like I’m stuck inside of a cage,
A point in my life I just cant turn the page,
An elusive enemy I cannot engage,
The most difficult and lonely time of my life,
Amplified by the antics of a bitter X wife,
I reached to my back and I pulled out the knife,
But the pain is still there its bleeding its tight,
I reach out to friends that I find are not there,
If I had any left I’d pull out all my hair,
Wondering why in the hell, its just not fair,
Looking for somebody out there who cares,
But all of my friends are in cyber space,
A vast and huge cavernous place,
And although they care and they know how I feel,
I’m starting to wonder if they’re even real,
The well wishes the thoughts and the hugs in a text,
The later of those that have helped me the best,
But I need the kind I can hold to my chest,
I’m wondering now if this is some kind of test,
If it is I might fail I cant take it no more,
I’m empty inside and Im closing the door,
My heart is a mess its bleeding on the floor,
Just getting dressed seems to much like a chore,
My life is alone, its dull and empty,
And the truth of it all is so clear to see,
I used to blame others but I know actually,
The problem lies here number one, its ME!

wow.. was I pissed...

but.. I cant say I feel any different now though. Just not as angry today.

Stuff just pours out of me... LOL

[Bearfanmike20]

I'm back.. its been way too long.

[n34footbalislife]

Hi Mike!!! Welcome back

[BlackDiamond]

Wow, what's been going on in here?

[Bearfanmike20]

Originally Posted by BlackDiamond

Wow, what's been going on in here?

Well it was total depression mixed with anxiety and boredom and a little bit of obsession.. but now...

Its just a good place to chill and have a beer.

you want one??

[JD67]

Beer for mike to try....

[Bearfanmike20]

Originally Posted by JD67

Beer for mike to try....

I think I may have some of this in the fridge @ my dads no joke.

[BlackDiamond]

Originally Posted by Bearfanmike20

Well it was total depression mixed with anxiety and boredom and a little bit of obsession.. but now...

Its just a good place to chill and have a beer.

you want one??

Only if you drink with me

[JD67]

Originally Posted by Bearfanmike20

I think I may have some of this in the fridge @ my dads no joke.

So...............try it?

[Bearfanmike20]

Originally Posted by JD67

So...............try it?

Will do. I'll report back with findings.

[n34footbalislife]

Originally Posted by JD67

Beer for mike to try....

Mmmmm this is good beer!!

[Bearfanmike20]

It was the summer shandy they had.. and It was ok...

[n34footbalislife]

Hi Mike! How goes it?